Since I arrived to the US I realize my personality has changed.
Although I understand english fully, my oral and written expression are not completely fluent. The fact that I take longer to express my ideas, made my character less intense, less opinionated, less authoritarian and arrogant.
I became a listener, a sponge of all things new, stimulant and deep. I no longer have the first, nor the last word. I reflect before talking. I pause, and breath before opening my mouth. And I listen more.
And perceive more. Due to my vocal deficiency, my other senses overcompensate. Each new day is a hyper-stimulation for me.
So after I year of pause on my character, now i see that my internal essence has changed. And the things that want to come out of me are more subtle, more wise, more healing. More thoughtfully embodied.
And so my body moves. Instead of words, my body expresses emotions and understanding, My presence reflects my understanding of patterns and functions. My body awareness is a reflection of my internal comprehension of how my ideas move inside my head. Of the order of priorities and development of each of the thoughts; of the values that I used to have by default, and the ones that I have now that are still changing. Of the fluidity of my character. Of my capacity to empty my sense of self and just let consciousness express itself.
As my primordial language is no longer the spoken word, my essence needs to communicate in other forms.
So I shall dance it all.